Cornucopia

Outfit Details:

Plant by Numbers Dress: ModCloth (no longer available... similar here, here and here)

Burgundy tights: not sure... similar here and here

Lady in Rad Boot in Camel: ModCloth (no longer available, similar here)

Necklace: Forever 21 (old)

Squirrel ring: Forever 21

Orange belt: ASOS

There are many times where I love seeing the different ways I can wear a specific piece.  I really do think there is something magical about remixing, especially when a piece is unique or tricky in some way.  But there are other times when I like to wear a particular piece in my closet a certain way, and end up styling it the exact same way every time I wear it.  This dress falls under the latter category, for some reason.  It's one of my favorite fall dresses.  I love the print (it reminds me so much of Thanksgiving, for some reason -- hence the post title), and it's super comfortable and flattering.  But I always end up wearing it with burgundy tights, these boots, and an orange belt (the dress came with a different orange belt, and it was so flimsy that it broke after one wear, so I went on a crazy orange belt hunt for a time).  In case you don't believe me, I wore this outfit very early on in my blogging, and I wore it the exact same way.  I will probably challenge myself to style this in a new way sometime soon (probably with a skirt over it), but this dress is kind of classically fall for me now, so I figured I should wear it in my favorite way the first time it came out of my closet this season.

I'm having trouble sleeping, and I have no doubt it's the result of anxiety, because logically, I should sleep like a baby every night with all the activity I'm doing.  I feel like I can't turn my mind off.  I knew this month would be difficult.  October was always my favorite month, and now I kind of can't wait until it's over, which makes me even sadder, really.  My birthday is in 5 days, and I sort of feel like it doesn't even matter.  I'm really glad I'm keeping so busy, because if I had to spend the whole day with my mind unoccupied (with the exception of these consuming thoughts), I'd probably lose it.  I'm desperately trying to stay positive and be my normal self, and I do succeed a lot of the time.  I'm constantly reminding myself of what I have to look forward to: hanging out with my cast mates on Friday, having a little birthday celebration on Saturday night, going out for tea with my mom and grandma on Sunday... getting a bunch of things to make over my room, thinking about taking a mini-vacation with my mom in January... these things cheer me up a little, but it's a little fleeting.  When you've made someone your world (whether he wants to believe that or not) for the better part of three years, you end up feeling very isolated when your world gets turned upside down.  I don't feel like I have very many people I can talk to, so I resort to writing down my rambling thoughts here.  Which is therapeutic in a way, but I don't want my blog to be a downer blog.  I want it to be a means of escape, for both myself and for those who read it.  I've always wanted it to be an upbeat, lovely fantasy place.  I want to get back to that, but I also want to be honest.  I'm trying to figure out that balance.  So please bear with me, friends.  I'll get back in the swing of things sooner or later (though I hope it's sooner).

   

Have a wonderful Wednesday.

xox Sammi