Outfit Details:
The Ethereal Thing Dress: ModCloth (no longer available)
Pink belt: Forever 21 (old)
Bracelet: American Eagle (old)
Mint spectators: BAIT Footwear
First things first: this is the dreamiest dress of all time. This is a fact, pure and simple. I was lucky enough to score this during one of ModCloth's crazy sales that happen only about twice a year, and I'm so glad I went for it. Secondly, you may notice that the surroundings look a little less autumnal than what's been in my photos lately. These were taken during the summer, and I hadn't posted them because Steven took them and it was just too much to even think about. But then I thought about it... and realized that I can't let someone who broke my heart continue to take away my happiness. I feel happy when I think about this dress, and when I'm wearing it. I feel happy when I'm blogging (did I mention that he wanted me to give up -- or at least drastically cut back on -- that in order to make him the #1 priority? And that this conversation took place after he had moved back home and cut off all contact with me? I had said I wasn't going to get into all that, but I guess I changed my mind... since I think after all the mind-changing he's done, I'm allowed to). I don't understand how someone can want another person to give up something that brings her so much joy, something that fulfills a creative drive, something that makes her feel good about herself. And frankly, I refuse to do that. I know I am nowhere near perfect, and it sometimes takes someone who cares about you to point out your shortcomings; I have always been willing to improve myself, and I know that a lot of compromise goes into any relationship. But there are limits to that. And I can't fathom being with someone who essentially wants me to change who I am and give up things I adore, on the off-chance that he "might" be able to love me again. So screw that. I am going to love this dress, and I am going to post these photos, because no one should be able to take my happiness away from me.
I'm sure everyone is sick to death of hearing about that whole situation (I know I am!), so I'll focus on some other things. Although this dress is very springy, I'm excited to see if I can remix it for the winter! I think pastels are actually really beautiful in the wintertime, and I already have some ideas. Let's see, what else... we are in full swing for our school tour, and we have just a couple weeks left before we go into tech. rehearsals for Rapunzel. I'm finally starting to feel like I'm on the mend from this second cold, thank goodness. I've started to receive swapped items from the ladies at Flock Together (my first post goes up tomorrow, by the way!!), which is super fun and exciting. I'm putting together the accessories for my Halloween costume, though I still have no idea where I'm going to wear it. And I made some plans for my birthday weekend (there's this bar I like that specializes in classic cocktails, it's kind of a prohibition era style place, so I hope people can come to that a couple of nights before my actual birthday... plus, I'd like to go out for tea with my mom and maybe go out to dinner with my parents, too). So I'm continuing to move forward. And I feel okay about it. Still unsure about what my future holds in a lot of ways. But I think I'll just have to be okay with that for now.
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| I just adore the back of this dress! |
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| ...Forgot to move my tripod. Whoops. |
I think that'll be the end of the ranting on here. It's off my chest, and I'll eventually be okay again. Onward and upward!
Have a great Thursday!
xox Sammi
