Saturday, February 2, 2013

I wonder if I'm doing this right (or, My Very First Post)

I am the kind of person who has always been very concerned with doing things right, and doing them right the first time.  I'd say I'm a perfectionist.  In fact, I'm editing and rewriting this as I type.  This tendency can prove problematic for a lot of people, I suppose, though I think it can be even more difficult when you're in a creative field, like I am.  So much of what I do involves being judged by others on a daily basis, and because I general have high standards, I have always been quick to judge myself (often before anyone else can).

There's also an interesting dichotomy in what I do: namely, there is a constant tug of war between a desperate need to obtain control and the reality that there isn't a whole lot you can control in this industry, no matter where you are.  I think the key to surviving thriving in this business is being as prepared as you can be and taking control of what you can... and happily letting go of what you can't.  I think finding the joy in this heart-breaking, wonderful, absolutely ridiculous field -- and in my life that is (somewhat) separate from it -- is what will sustain me.

Of course, I may think about this differently in a year from now.

I've been wanting to start my own blog for a while, after spending hours poring over dozens of other blogs I admire so greatly.  Sometimes I'm not so sure I'll have anything incredibly remarkable to say (or if anyone will actually read it!) but I love writing and miss doing it on a regular basis.  I have a million creative ideas whizzing around my head and, despite being in such a creative field, I feel like I don't have much of an outlet for them at the moment, or am able to give them a voice.  Plus, I have a closet full of great pieces that are rarely seen by anyone, and because I've been so inspired by the bloggers I follow (who all have such amazing senses of style), I feel like there's no better place to showcase them than here.

In other words, I think I can always use more joy in my life.  So I hope that's what this blog will be.