Hey, cupcake!

Sweet Me Off My Feet Dress: ModCloth (similar styles here, here and here)

*Same cupcake design in separates by Nishe: here and here*

Cupcake headband: Pink Sugar

Cupcake ring: Sweet 'n Neat Jewelry
Powder blue spectator pumps: BAIT Footwear
White tights: Target

Happy Halloween, everyone!  Halloween has always been my favorite holiday, which shouldn't really be that surprising a fact, since anything that involves costumes and candy is right up my alley.  And since I'm practically a Halloween baby, this whole time has always been kind of special to me.  I sort of ended up putting a birthday theme into my costume this year.  Nishe is one of my absolute favorite designers, and when this dress arrived at ModCloth, I couldn't not order it.  It's definitely not the most flattering dress I own, but it is certainly one of the most precious.  I wish I had been able to find a powder blue cardigan or something to go over this (though it actually wasn't too cold when I took these), only because I think it'd sort of complete it as an ensemble.  I'll have to figure out a way to wear this dress in real life (since Halloween doesn't really count, in my opinion).

As much as I love Halloween, today marks what would have been Steven's and my three year anniversary.  Our first date was on Halloween, and so that made it even more special.  And of course, now it's made the holiday really emotionally-loaded and difficult to even try to enjoy.  I have the day off from school shows today (which is nice, but also kind of bad, since my mind isn't occupied), though I do have rehearsal at night, at least.  There are just a lot of things that I don't think I'll ever understand, and that's the kind of thing that keeps me awake at night.  I'm really worried about what'll happen when I'm not working on these two shows (they're both going to end around the same time, within the next couple of weeks), since I don't have anything lined up right after.  I guess I need to take it just one day at a time, because thinking about anything further away than that is causing me to have a lot of anxiety.  I know I'll need to figure out what I'm going to do, but I think I need to officially put that on the back burner until I can actually start to accept everything and start to heal my heart.

But in the category of things that truly warm my heart... thank you all so, so very much for your sweet birthday wishes on my blog, on Facebook and on Instagram.  Truly, I was incredibly touched by your thoughtfulness and kindness.  I realized that I didn't mention this in yesterday's post (since I'd scheduled that in advance and forgot to add it), so I wanted to make sure that I expressed my gratitude to you all.  Despite what happened with my relationship, I know that I am a very lucky girl to have such wonderful people in my life -- both "irl" and throughout the blogosphere.

Have a happy, safe and spooktacular Halloween!!

xox Sammi