Thursday, September 26, 2013

Forever Autumn

Outfit Details:
Luck Be a Lady Dress in Autumn Plaid: ModCloth (similar here)
Brown velvet jacket: thrifted
Dessert Dash Flats in Cocoa: ModCloth
Diary handbag: Naputa's Secret Garden
Squirrel ring: Forever 21

I took these photos yesterday between rehearsals, and it was the first time in a while that I really felt like putting on something nice and stepping in front of the camera.  I came down with a bad cold right as my show was opening (luckily, we had enough days off in between shows that my voice was fine for performances), and between that and the whole breakup conundrum, I hadn't felt especially inspired or attractive.  But I wanted to take advantage of the beautiful weather, and the fact that I've been doing pretty well over the past few days.  I'm still struggling to come to terms with it all, especially when my mind isn't occupied.  I'm going to have bouts of sadness for a while, and in my experience, it's always been very difficult for me to get over someone if I can't be mad at the person in question.  After receiving a cold -- and frankly, just shitty -- response to a heartfelt email (which probably read more like a plea) I sent out of desperation and naïveté, I finally have a tangible reason to be at least a little bit angry.  Although my goal is to focus on the positive, I'm sort of thinking that a little bit of well-deserved fury can't hurt, either.  It's better than wallowing, at least. 

It helps that I'm in rehearsal all day for a touring show (based on the story of Hansel and Gretel), and then all night for the Rapunzel show.  I actually play an evil witch in both shows, which I love -- especially because it's kind of far-removed from my actual personality.  It's a welcome escape, and it feels good to feel like a "real" actor again.  I really like working at the box office for my day job, but it sometimes leaves me with too much time to think about things, and the chance to be absorbed in my acting work again couldn't have come at a better time.

Autumn is my favorite season (it doesn't hurt that my birthday is at the end of October -- though thinking about spending my 25th birthday alone is sort of depressing), and I am determined to not let it be spoiled by recent events.  I'll be damned if I can't enjoy sweater weather and crunchy leaves and warm, lovely drinks and all the beautiful smells and sights that I associate with fall.  I may not have him to go apple picking with... and I may no longer have a "Halloweeniversary"... but I refuse to give up on finding happiness where I can.  There are going to be a lot of sentimental (and stinging) thoughts within the next couple of months, but I'll just have to make new, joyful memories to take their place.

These leaves were super crunchy and I enjoyed every second of walking through them.

I thought this song was rather apropos in every way...

Have a lovely Thursday.
xox Sammi


  1. I neeeed a plaid dress like that for fall. Plaid is my friend.
    Have fun enjoying the lovely weather and your birthday and making new memories..I think you've got a really good perspective on this whole thing. Hang in there! <3

  2. Your jacket! Good lord, that jacket! If I found that thrifting, I would have snatched that up too!

    It's good to hear that you're doing a bit better, just keep moving forward, do what you love, and create those wonderful new memories. You're looking lovely as always.

  3. the squirrel ring ^_^ love this outfit, its perfect and you look lovely as always x

  4. Good for you for keeping positive and doing things that you enjoy. It's so hard to do after getting your heart broken, so props to you! You look beautiful and this autumn weather has definitely been amazing. It's good to hear that you're getting over your cold!

  5. I hope you feel better soon! Get on with the positive attitude! :D You can do it.

    The outfit is beautiful! I really like the prints on the dress and the jacket you style with is really cool too.

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  6. Oh Sammi, I'm glad that you're keeping your positivity up--or at least trying. I'm sorry that the response to your heartfelt email was less than kind, but at least you know you're not missing anything else... if that makes sense. You're an amazing lady and I just really hope you know that. I adore you!

    You are looking SO CUTE! Ah, this dress is so autumnal and I love the colors--they are seriously reminiscent of autumn's fading leaves. :)

  7. The dress is gorgeous, I love autumn too (and am allowed to because I'm a fall baby...I hate how everyone else loves it for pumpkin spice lattes and crap lol). Holidays are coming up, it's hard for people this time of year...emotionally. Keep your head up!

  8. beautiful fall colors & textures! You look lovely, and your squirrel ring is adorable. :)

  9. This dress is perfect. You embody fall in this post! And I hope you can enjoy your birthday despite everything :)

  10. awww babes you poor thing. How horrible to get back a cold hearted e-mail and yes i AGREE it's easier to get over someone when you're angry!! cue the Alanis Morisette (listen to 'You oughta know' this helps!). I don't get how guys how they can just cut us off so easily and not feel anything sometimes?? seriously?! it's so bizarre. But so proud of how positive and upbeat you're being.

    I am simply in love with this outfit these colours are soooo pretty! proper autumnal! and that velvet jacket is gorgeous!


  11. I'm so sorry to hear that you're still feeling upset- he sounds like an asshole for writing back a cold email. You deserve the moon and the stars and the whole universe! Set high standards for your next man!

    Xo, Hannah

  12. You look perfect for fall -- goodness, those colors are darling on you. :D

    and an evil witch? lawl, I would never have thought that. Your face is endearingly sweet, but I guess that's what makes a great actress; the ability to be things you don't seem to be. :D


  13. Oh what a wonderful plaid dress on you! Looks so chic and pretty! I enjoyed every of those wonderful pictures, autumn can be so beautiful! To focus on the positive is a great goal and I'm trying to do that too)
    You have a fantastic blog inhere, just started to follow you with GFC and on Bloglovin', hope you can follow me back;)
    Have a fabulous time!

  14. great post!
    you've got a beautiful blog!
    would you love to follow each other?
    let me know on my blog :)

  15. Awesome dress! That jacket steals the show for me, though. Amazing textures! <3

    - Anna

  16. What a gorgeous dress and jacket combo! So glad to have found your blog - looking forward to seeing what else you come up with!

  17. That jacket is absolutely amazing! What an awesome find. It looks gorgeous with that dress. Love your blog, and you are too cute! Following through Bloglovin' <3

    Jenny Lee


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